Intro: a lil bit more about ME

So like most people, ive been struggling with weight since forever. i tried all types of diets too, some worked some failed.  i was never and will never be model skinny. ive excepted that.  Though i was once healthier and slimmer then what i am now.  It all went down hill after high school when i went to college. The sad part is that when i was in High School and i did dancing and theatre....i thought i was fat. i was bulimic and no one knew. I look at my pictures now and think how could i think i was fat? i looked awesome! i was a hott lil mama. Though now here i am eight years later and i'm still not happy.  I had unrealistic goals and made a lot of excuses for myself.  I'm now done with it all because after having my first born 8 months ago, i realized how happy and fulfilling it is to be a mom, but its hard! Though i know a lot of it is how tired and weak i feel with all this weight on me.  My husband and i talked about having more children but before i can do that i need to be healthy enough to raise my kids.  Me personally i just am exhausted with my son and my body is so achy from all this weight that i put on and i need to be more healthier and alert.  I don't want to have more kids and keep putting on more and more weight each time. So here's to the beginning of being healthier again, for my family but most of all this is for ME <3